Jumat, 01 Februari 2013

kenalan men !!

Ehem, gue sebenernya udah langsung mau numpahin curhatan gue. iya gue tau kalo sebenernya curhatan gue itu nggak penting-penting amat sih. tapi mo gimana lagi, namanya juga gak penting, yaudalah, gue simpen dulu aja. gue takut, begitu baca postingan pertama gue, lo langsung sekarat kebelet boker :p hahaha

yang jelas, gue mo kenalan dulu sama elo elo yang nyasar ato nggak sengaja ato --apapun modus lo ! kok bisa-bisanya ndampar ampe blog 'rahasia' gue wakaka.


iya! ini blog rahasia! lo tau kenapa gue bilang blog ini blog rahasia? jawabannya adalah, karena kagak ada yang tau kalo ini blog gue ! huakakaka okeoke, gue tau, pasti lo pada mo protes "Tuhan tau, geblek!"

iya deh iya, yang tau : cuma gue, dan Tuhan. Puas lo?!

At first, gue gak mau banyak cing cong. gue juga gak goblok goblok amat mau ngasih identitas gue yang sebenernya ke elo elo pada. Gue gak punya temen di rumah, gue juga lagi nabung, makanya menurut gue bakal gak penting kalo kudu beli alat tulis buat curhat. nah, gue bikin blog aja kan gratis tuh ya hahaha

gue punya blog laen. tapi rahasia :p blog gue yang itu udah banyak visitorsnya (cieilee) jadi gue gak berani curhat vulgar di sana. makanya gue bikin ni blog, buat buang bokeran gue. buat ngusap umbel umbel gue, buat meres airmata gue, buat jadi kuping yang denger semua umpatan gue, buat gue, buat gue, buat gue, buat, BAH ! udah! udah!

Sabtu, 26 Januari 2013

aku,dia, kau mereka !! ukir cerita

kita lahir kedunia dengan tubuh mungil tanpa cela
dititipkan Ilahi kepada kedua orang tua
di didik di bimbing saat masih balita
di berikan kasih dengan penuh rasa cinta

hari-hari tumbuh bersama dikalangan jelata
berkembang layaknya bocah umumnya
bermain tertawa menangis adalah hal yang biasa
sampai akhirnya kita tumbuh menjadi dewasa

Mimpi mimpi dan mimpi selalu mengiringi
teka teki hidup yang harus di lewati
berusaha taklukan semua yang di ingini
untuk bekal hidup dihari tua nanti

perlahan berat tapaki pelik hidup yang melanda
tersentak membuat kita harus memiliki sebuah arah
saatnya  harus mengerti tentang arti perjuangan
jikalau diam akan digilas roda peradaban

karena wanita !!

Masih meratap penuh tanya..?
apa yang salah,, mengapa selalu gw yang mengalah
seakan tak ada lagi tempat untuk gw berpijak
bosan,,
capek,,
jenuh,,
hingga muak menghadapi pelik hidup ini..

terbesit bila dia ada disini,,
gw ingin menatap matanya dalam-dalam setelah gw puas,, ingin rasanya meludah matanya lalu beranjak pergi
pergi untuk selama-lamanya,,
hilang dari hidupnya,,
menikmati kesendirianku....

sampai kapan ya Tuhan,,
sering terbesit tanya yang gw lontarkan...
tapi apa seolah-olah tak ada jawaban,, yang gw dapat hanya beribu jawaban kosong

munajat cinta :D

dengarkanlah kawan diriku punya sebuah kisah
dengar semua karena kupunya banyak kisah
tentang mantan-mantan ku mulai dari yang pertama
sampai yang terakhir yang ku lupa namanya

pacarku yang pertama body nya sungguh seksi
30 bernumb size berkebanyang g sih
ku g bisa lupa karena dia yang pertama
membuatku kehilangan aku punya perjaka

padahal waktu itu waktu baru kelas satu 
sma aku dan dirinya teman sebangku
kalau g ada guru kita beraha-uhu
dikolong meja waktu sampai menjelang subuh

seperti 2 kelinci kita g kenal waktu
dimana ada waktu kita pasti selalu itu
tapi waktu berlalu mesra-mesra menjauh
habis lulus-lulusan kita putus dan menjauh

senandung rapper kesandung


Ternyata bener gak gampang kalo jadi rapper
Cari ide seger otak harus pinter diputer
Kaya ghost buster basmi hantu gentayangan
Tiap kesempatan luang harus sigap digunakan

Antara hoby dan keibukan harus dipilah
Harus mudah nyari celah, waktu dibelah belah
Bela belain gak kuliah absensi pada bolong
Kalo udah gini kejadian gimana mau ketolong

Bikin ini itu jadi rapper yang ku tuju
Berusaha dari dulu mentok gak maju maju
Kaya di ring tinju kerjaan rutin di sambung
Gak ngelawan riayat bakalan berenti nyambung

Ibarat mau daki gunung cuma sampe di lereng
Banyakan merenung semangat balik segede klereng
Pandangan pun jereng gak tau mau kemana lagi
Bingung sama pilihan hidup yang banyak terbagi


pengen jadi rapper harus tahan banting
otak terus dipaksa tar malah jadi miring
terus pontang panting sampe mikir sinting
meski gayaku garing pacu smangat tetep penting

Teman ngasih saran harus total berperan
Niscaya nasib baik bakal ngucur kaya air kran
Tapi sering kejadian malah cerita sebaliknya
Hidup makin gak jelas gak dapat jalan keluarnya

Belum lagi kalo ada anak hiphop yang sirik
Suka mengusik suasana pun jadi gak asik
Pedes telinga ini denger lagu diss yang sadis
Bikin nyali ciut memacu menjadi miris

Kadang dibilang rapku niru biar menjadi seru
Tapi man coba dicek tiap gayaku lebih baru
Gak buru buru telan mentah influen
Biar keren maka kubuat ciptaan khas yang paten

Gak Cuma ngebanyol yang bikin kelihatan tolol
Lirik yang nongol murni pengalamanku dari nol
Skill utama yang nonjol gak Cuma sekedar gaya
Jadi real proyekku tak di dongkrak mewah biaya


Yang lebih mengenaskan kalo udah diledek
Celaan orang luar rap sok tau akalnya pendek
Bilang styleku gombrong pasti gaul dan sombong
Plototin lagi mah clanaku udah bolong bolong

Oh My God nasib baik kok ngilang gak keliat
Datang Cuma sekelebat kurasakan sangat singkat
Bikin nekad malah buat hal yang macam macam
Ntar malah dikecam masa depan jelas terancam

Mo gimana lagi hiphop kini bagian hidup
Bikin ketagihan meskipun terkadang redup
Asal bangkit masih sanggup ya jalan terus
Jalani serius tegar sama jalan yang gak mulus

Anggap aja ini bekal kita membuat hari depan
Tapi malah dongkol nasib berkata kapan kapan
Yah.. terpaksa semua balik tersimpan lagi
Ganti pola pikir rap gue seneng gak bikin rugi

Selasa, 22 Januari 2013

haha dalem banget kata katanya

Somewhere there’s someone who dreams of your smile, and finds in your presence that life is worth while, so when you are lonely, remember this is true: Somebody, somewhere is thinking of you.”

How do I say goodbye to someone I never really had? Why do my tears fall so endlessly for someone who was never really mine? Why is it I miss someone I was never really with? And why do I love someone whose love was never really mine?

If you live to be a hundred, I want to live to be a hundred minus one day so I never have to live without you.

“I spent so many nights thinking about you,my heart spent to many hours missing you, I wasted my time being with you, and now it’s time to move on.”

“One day you’ll love me, the way I loved you. One day you’ll think of me the way I thought of you. One day you’ll cry for me, the way I cried for you. One day you’ll want me, but I won’t want you. yam!”

You have to forgive to forget, and forget, to feel again.

“You either let go for two reasons…. you’ve learned enough to want to, or you’ve been hurt enough you have to.”

“I can’t escape the thought of you. Even in my dreams you are there. It’s not fair how your gone, and how you’re moving on so fast, while I am still living in the past.”

“just because one simple sentence.. u have already killed all d reason for me to care .. but I’m still standing here .. for one stupid reason that I still don’t understand why, u can call it love.. But of course, something has changed!!”

“It’s funny how the first time we were at this place, something between us was beginning…..but it breaks my heart to know that we are at this same place and that something between us is now ending.”

“Never give up hopes. Just believe in your dreams.
But, what do I hope for if I dont even know what my dream is?”

“You start out life with a clean slate. Then you begin to make your mark. You face decisions, make choices. You keep moving forward. But sooner or later there comes a time where you look back over where you have been… and wonder who you really are. ”

-”You taught me how to love, but not how to stop.”

-”in every girls life there is a guy she will never forget, and the summer when it all began.”

-”I hope that in the end, we can all laugh and say it was worth it.”

-”Still I won’t say goodbye, won’t ever say goodbye. And know that I’ll always be yours.”

-”I don’t wish to be everything to everyone, but I would like to be something to someone.”

-”I reached for sleep and drew it round me like a blanket muffling pain and thought together in the merciful dark”

“Women are like apples on trees. The best ones are at the top of the tree. The men don’t want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they just get the rotten apples from the ground that aren’t as good, but easy. So the apples at the top think something is wrong with them, when in reality, they’re amazing. They just have to wait for the right man to come along, the one who’s brave enough to climb all the way to the top.”

I can spend minutes, hours, days, or even months over-analyzing a situation; trying to put the pieces back together, justifying what could’ve, would’ve happened or I can just leave the pieces on the floor and move the FU*K on!

They say follow your heart.
But when your heart is in so many pieces.
Which way are you to follow?

“I wish i were a little girl again, because skinned knees are easier
to fix than broken hearts.”

“you can say that you always wish me to be happy, but don’t you know it can’t be realize, coz to be happy means you lovin’ me and always be with me but you can’t let yourself do it for me”

“Have you ever wondered which hurts more:
saying something and wishing you hadn’t
or saying nothing and wishing you had?”

“it’s time to move the f*ck on!
you make me tired of waiting for so long. maybe you’re just too weird to be true!”

“It’s hard to trust and it’s hard to cry. It’s hard to love and later say goodbye. But it’s much harder to let go when you really want to say no. But this is life of making hearts grow”

To love is to risk not being loved in return. To hope is to risk pain. To try is to risk failure, but risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing.

“Sometimes we have just to let go of someone who matters to us not because we want to but because we have to, and its the right things to do… let us remember that we cant force anyone to love us…we cant beg someone to stay when he wants to leave and be with someone else…this is what live is all about… however the end f love is not the end of life.. it should be the beginning of understanding that love lives for a reason and leaves with a lesson”

“Everyone can make you happy in your life. Some do it by walking into your life. Some do it by walking out.”

“If he was stupid enough to walk away
be smart enough to let him go.”

“Sometimes I wish I had never met you
because then I could go to sleep at
night not knowing there was someone
like you out there.”

“Everything you’ve done will become someone else memory. The person might forget the exact words you said but no way to make them forget the way you made them feel.”

“Sometimes we think we need answer’s but most of the time its just better to walk away,and try to get on with your life.”

“Love cannot be forgotten, it can only be ignored long enough until ignoring it becomes routine.”

“why am I such a fool fallin’ in love with that foolest person!”

“loving is not owning, we can let it go!”

“Rules of a relationship, Rule 1 : The girlfriend is always right; Rule 2: When the girlfriend is wrong see rule 1.”

“jika memang dia,
dari awal mula dan selamanya akan tetap selalu dia,
tapi jika bukan,
dari awal mula dan selamanya tidak akan pernah dia,
dan pasti ada “dia” yang lain
yang jauh lebih baik dari dia yang bukan.”

Don’t you know that I still wait someone who don’t realize that I wait him for so long.
Don’t you know that I can’t forget someone I really love and I don’t know why.
Don’t you know that I hurt really so bad because of being tired of waiting.
Don’t you know…
Don’t you know…
Don’t you know… that someone is you?

“again and again I’m dreaming about you
again and again I can’t erase all about you
again and again until I’m tired and I don’t know when.”

just thinking about you :)

Somebody is thinking of you.
Somebody is caring about you.
Somebody misses you.
Somebody wants to talk to you.
Somebody is very proud of you.
Somebody wishes you were here.
Somebody needs you to have faith in them.
Somebody trusts you.
Somebody hears a song that reminds them of you.
Somebody hopes everything turns out great for you.
Somebody wants you to know they are there for you.
Somebody can’t wait to see you.
Somebody loves you for who you are.
Somebody wants you to be happy.
Somebody sends you a smile!
Somebody is glad to have you for a friend! And that somebody is ME !